Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Stay Down

Me & L

Sometimes someone comes into your life and they make you feel things you never believed you could. All my life I've wanted to love someone unconditionally and feel the same love in return. Through all the heartache and pain I've finally found him. :)

He's my best friend. Through thick & thin he's been a constant in my life. We met about 10 years ago. A high school crush that I never thought I'd see again. Then, one summer night, we met again and we've been inseparable ever since. I don't ever wanna imagine my life without him here. He has ALL my love forever.


Thursday, February 3, 2011

if u love somethin let it go...

...n if it comes back then that's how u kno

i really suck at updating my blog :/ sorry ya'll!

sooo much has been goin on. so much stress. i'm confused n heartbroken. i hate being single cuz i kno that me n my ex have a really deep connection. it's hard to explain, but i can't get him outta my mind. no matter how hard i try i just feel like there's unfinished business between us. he was my best friend. n even tho we had a lot of bad times, the good times were really really amazing.

he's my soul's angel. period.
other than that a good friend of mine was murdered. shot in the head by someone that met him the night before. they were staying in the same apartment with a mutual "friend". crazy shit. it breaks my heart.

overall i'm mentally n emotionally exhausted. i need a vacation away from everything so i can just think. i need to make a decision about wut i'm gonna do with my life. pray for me loves♥


Thursday, December 23, 2010

it all happened a little too late
cuz i waited a little too long
got caught up in the moment
of bein young n dumb
let myself settle for somethin easy
that turned out to be way too hard
a long distance love
turned into a dark cloud
raining constantly on my parade
taking every ounce of my time
gave him my heart n my soul
only to find he betrayed me over time
coulda had a real love
if i woulda been more patient
saw u before life made ur heart cold
n now u wont let me save it
cant believe i had u within my grasp
so close i can still see u sittin there
but i was too shy n had my eyes fixed
on someone who had my vision impaired

borrowed happiness

it's crazy how they never really see u til ur gone
n even then they dont realize 
how much they did u wrong
n u tried to stick it out n be strong
hoping eventually they'd quit leading u on
but they stay focused on the fast chicks
the ones they can say hi n bye to
cuz they dont really mean shit
n u just watch n wonder 
who is this bitch?
she cant even compare to me
yet she's the one he wanna be with
even if it's just one night
they get loose off the Henny 
n they ready to let it all out
tell u things they wouldnt dare say
if u were to call em out
but it's those late night conversations
the things he whispers in my ear
that put this stupid smile on my face
cuz it's wut i wanna hear
n i kno that half the things he's tellin me
he wont let me hold him to tomorrow
but ill take a little slice of those high hopes
cuz happiness can only be borrowed


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Summertime Seduction

i can feel the bass of the slow grooves
vibrate from my feet to my hips
making me sway left to right
as sweat beads flow down to my lips
feeling the excitement in the air
as he pulls me closer to his chest
while i poke it out and put it on him
never letting him catch his breath
slowly he glides his hands down my waist
his lips barely on my neck
creating an electric current
making me forget about holding back
it's that summertime seduction....♥ 

written by me...